D(issapointment)(epression)

You know, I hate to follow such a hopeful post with such a depressing post but I’m sorry, that’s how I feel. I’m really down right now. It seems that whenever I focus on my music it sounds horrible and I can never imagine anyone else ever listening to it. I believe I’ll call it the, “curse of the musician. ” It tends to rise and fall but especially when you have a huge flux of emotions or when you’re tired. I think that’s why so many bands break apart and why musicians leave the music business. They get tired and peter out.

Yet, there’s always hope. I believe as a Christian that God is the answer to my life petering out. He gives me a reason and new fire to burn again. If He can do that with my life then He can most certainly do that with my music.

God, please give me your holy fire to play this music for you with a passion.

-Ben